Deep in Sorrow

I feel lucky to feel this pain
It's bitter but sweet
It's hard but really soft
Contradiction.... runs into my vein

I walk in a no man's land
where there's only me and there is one there
hoping for the rain that will never fall
praying for the time, impossible to come
Crawling and reaching out for things
too high up in the sky
Too deep in the ocean
nothing to gain as I am not a winner
always be the second bet since the day i was born
its a mistake, searching for a place to confide

I feel lucky for falling in too deep
And struggling to climb up
But I am not dead yet
I will continue to live
Though life is empty
And My path is not even cleared
Yes... there are ghost behind me
Ghost from the past, Ghost of my future
And I chose to let them go
because I live in the present

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