The World I Live in

kutipan chat saya bersama jeng Erlyta Novell - sahabat SMA saya- via YM tentang makna teman. salah satu teman mengungkapkan lewat status facebooknya "sampe aku wes dadi dokter kamu tetep ae g munggah2..kelasmu yo iku2 ae..gumbulanmu iku2 ae..kpn berkembang" Shock dan kaget membaca status tersebut, prihatin sekaligus kesal. Berikut ini adalah tanggapan saya atas status tersebut, mengingat saya tidak lagi ada di friend list teman tersebut dan saya merasa tidak rugi sama sekali. " konco iku yo segalanya, pelipur lara, sing iso dijak guyonan, sing iso gawe ngguyu nek pas aku susah, wes bersyukur pokoke duwe konco koyo kalian semua: Novel, Gandos, sokeh, devi, aak, husni, lely, ges, Roni wes kabeh pokoke. kene tetep koncoan karo konco lawas bukan berarti nggak berkembang, justru malah kita berkembang, sopo ngerti rejekine awak dewe malah teko konco, yo tah. gimana2 sing iso ngerti awak dewe iku mrk sing tau menjalani masa2 bareng awak dewe, bukan org lain sing mak bedunduk te...

"For The First Time" She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart, While I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar, And we don't know how, How we got in to this mad situation, Only doing things outta frustration Trying to make it work but man these times are hard, She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time, I've got a new job now on the unemployment line, And we don't know how, How we got into this mess is it god's test, Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best, Trying to make it work but man these times are hard But we're gonna start by Drinking old cheap bottles of wine, Sit talking up all night, Saying things we haven't for a while A while ya We're smiling but we're close tears, Even after all these years, We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time Oooooo She's in line at the door With her head held high While I just lost my job but Didn't lose my pride But we both know how, H...

There's a glimpse of ray coming to my mind Just today... And I decide to move on and keep smiling to the world Because there's no use of beating up myself Over something that doesnt matter much There he goes and let him go Because there is no use of clinging on someone Holding on something that doesnt belongs to us Let them go and let it be gone The new day will come And lots of life and love will appear Right before our very eyes There is always a hope in the horizon And the sun will keep shining tomorrow He doesnt care so why should I care There are alot of things in this world I could achieve on my own There are times when we feel down and under But there will be time for us to get up and go And starts smiling to the world for a friend, thanks for the advice 'because we should never matter what is not matter'

I'm torturing myself Reading how he wrote about her Flaunting everything she has Everything that I don't have Try to resist it and keep on going But it hurt so much I can barely hold my tears I wish she is me but she isn't me And I will never be her I will never be his However hard I try to move on My feet are tied my heart is caged Looking away to the sky I imagine myself with him But only imagination Just like the sky, too high to reach Its who you are Simply knowing him is a gift Remembering his voice, cheer me up The voice that will remain forever in my memory Even as I cant see, I'll still able to feel Wish I was never feel this Hope it will dissapear Emotions running through my veins As if a remainder of a fate God has given and no mortal could change I really do, hoping for the best for you Though it means the worst will come to me God... this hurt so much I feel like I could die Watching, reading, hearing him mentioning about her.... But What else I can do, jus...

She was Dreaming of a savior Who would guide her out from the muddy pond Show her the way to the bigger river Where she could be free from entrapment She was hoping for a hero To take the burden off her shoulder Giving her Shoulder to cry on Then, helping her to fly away She was wishing for a live line To follow as she is lost To cling on whenever she drowns So, there will be a place for her to run to But She is only an ugly duckling Dreaming too high Hoping too much Wishing the impossible An Ugly duckling who will forever be an ugly duckling Should never dream becoming a swan Because the more she dreams...the more she hopes... the more she wishes The more pain she would get Since there is no Savior No Hero or even live line Will come to rescue her She is already got herself trapped in the muddy pond The more she tries to move... the deeper she is pulled in The Ugly Duckling who dreams to be a swan Should Stop dreaming now and walk the reality Because this muddy pond is where she belon...

Platonis Itulah kau dan aku Meledak - ledak seperti kembang api yang meluncur ke angkasa Tapi tak berasa apa - apa Tak ada yang tertinggal, hanya tawa Kau Seperti burung yang terus berpindah mengikuti bergantinya musim Tak bisa terikat oleh rasa satu Tak mau terhenti hanya karena sekuntum bunga tersenyum padamu Bebas... Itulah kamu Tak pernah terpikir tentang masa yang berganti Atau hidup sesudah mati Jalan itu berputar dan berliku Dan aku tahu, tak pernah ada cukup waktu untukmu Karena kau terus berlari Tapi terpikirkah olehmu Saat kau lihat senyum Ayah pada anaknya Saat kau lihat Suami menggandeng istrinya Waktumu sudah sampai kawan Tak perlu lagi kau berlari dan mengejar sesuatu yang tak pasti Masa depanmu akan menghampirimu tanpa harus kau kejar Atau mungkin, dia sudah berada di dekatmu Tanpa kau pernah tahu... for my best friend: its time for you to decide