The World I Live in

Aku menatap Bayu dari kejauhan,kakinya yang dengan lincah menggiring bola, melewati beberapa orang temannya. Aku tak menyadari, tanganku mengepal gemas melihat beberapa teman Bayu mencoba menghalangi Bayu. Aku nyaris melonjak kegirangan begitu melihat tendangan Bayu berhasil membuahkan angka untuk tim kelas Bayu. tapi aku segera menyadari kalau aku dikelilingi oleh teman - teman dan adik kelas yang juga penggemar Bayu, sang kapten tim sepakbola sekolahku. aku menghela nafas, menunduk kemudian mundur teratur lalu berjalan ke kantin. Mending aku mendinginkan kepala dengan segelas es cendol Pak Jukri, daripada terus bermimpi jadi pacar seorang Bayu, cowok yang paling di gilai di sekolah ini. Aku berhenti di depan perpustakaan dan menatap wajahku yang terpantul di kaca jendela. Rambutku yang ikal dan susah untuk di rapikan dan kulitku yang gelap, dan ketika aku nyengir, wajahku jadi makin aneh karena gigiku yang terlalu putih. Bahkan ketika kelas ku kemping di hari pramuka tahun lalu, semu...

You and I, we complete each other. I will be the eyes when you cant see and you will be the feet when I cant walk. We maybe different, but we complete each other... BEST FRIENDS WITH SIMILAR TALENTS ?? "SAKKI... RUN!!!RUN, SAKKI!! DONT LOOK BACK!!!" Khalila keep on shouting at Sakki, warning him. But Sakki freezes, standing there with his eyes locked at the corner of the rooftop. Khalila is horrified to see him in daze, keep on walking, towards the edge of the rooftop as if he doesn’t hear her screaming his name at all. Khalila is tense, but she doesn’t give up, she runs towards Sakki while at the same time, keeps on shouting; “No! No... you cant do that to him!! DONT DO THAT TO SAKKI!!” Khalila is panting, tense; sweat flowing from her forehead as she finally gets a hold on Sakki. She grabs his left hand with her right hand and then covers his eyes with her left hand. And immediately Sakki jolts. As his vision darkened when Khalila blindfolds his eyes with her hand, ...

its past midnight already and I am still awake. I am currently watching a Korean Drama 'Master's Sun'. I dont really watch Korean Dramas, not because they are not good. they are good, far much better than Indonesian Sinetrons even. I was once hoping that i could work with them, making Drama over there. its far fetch, i know, but I find their work ethic and their creativity amazing. the only reason why i dont really watch Korean Drama, only because i will easily get carried away by the story. I will be easily falling in love with the characters and ends up getting into their story. and i really hate that because I think I will never have happy endings like the characters in those Korean Drama. I have written earlier in my other post, that I never have a good luck with love. I either falling for a guy who never love me back or finding a guy who is not the right man for me. I always thinks that my family is cursed. my grandma was married three times, twice divorced and she w...

I watched so many soap operas, so many korean and japanese series, so many american serials, its a part of my job. and the common theme among those series and soap operas are either cinderella stories or romeo and juliet. a woman longing for her prince charming, knight who will rescue her from the horrible life she lives in. and then desperate lovers, wanting so much to be with each other but situation comes in between, break them apart. some may have happy endings but some more have sad endings. I am kind of liking the sad ending one. probably because my life isnt that far from it. I have a lot of things to be happy with, to be grateful with. but love is not among those things. i never have good luck in that department. I either become the stupid one who is waiting desperately for the guy i love who will never love me back, or finding the right guy but not the right man. I think i am suck in this. but never mind, I will write down one of my stories. I am only sharing my experience, ...

There are times when people come to me and tell me "YOU CANT DO IT" and I just walk away from them and says " I KNOW I CAN". There are times when what those people said to me come true. I couldn't do it, its not done. And they are all clapping hands as if saying "See, I told You so". I smile and walks away, but say "Thank you for the lesson"! Some times in our lives, people comes to break our spirit, to bring us down. Let them do what they want to do, if we believe in ourselves, there's no need to listen every negative words people throwing at us. I grew up with a parent who always have one or more negative things to say every day. And I learned to be a coward because they kept on telling me about the bad consequences. I learned to be careful, but I learned not to take a risk. I learned not to break the boundaries. But then, I start asking myself. What is life if we never feel the rush of adventure. What's left to be told if we never ...

There was this feeling hanging in the air When the sight of you broke into my space And those time when we didn't know each other But totally aware about each other... Those moment, the memory that I stored in the back of my mind Surfacing slowly... There were words left unspoken And just laughter and smile we shared While glancing on each other from the distance And the story we were supposed to share But never got to experienced it together We were in our own worlds... I had you in my heart, you kept me in your mind But we weren't telepathic creatures... Didn't understand or couldn't comprehend What happened back then... You knew my name, I often wrote yours... But neither one of us, had the courage Of uttering each other's name When we crossed each other's path I was Jumpy, Awkward, nervous Got this excitement goosebumps Whenever I caught you in my sight My vision tunnelled down to you... Even when you were hidden in the crowd And Now... so many...

You said I am an invaders But you have invade my life I never have a plan to know you If this is invasion Then I am ready for war Come and Bring it on You are the invader Trespassing my life Violating boundaries And you slowly walk away As if nothing ever happened I curse the day I met you I Wish to be able to restart the life And left it all behind, let you passed by You are trespasser, invader and violator! And my anger will fall on you...